Your Twenties in a Nut Shell

Your twenties are a weird stage of your life. I mean, You spend the first eighteen to nineteen years of your life having to raise your hand and ask for permission to go to the washroom, and then boom just like that everything changes.

“Books are a uniquely portable magic” – Stephen King

“Adulting”; six years later.

Lately, I find myself looking back on the last couple years and wondering where I went wrong and how if I would have done just one or two things differently how much better my life could be.

Loss.

I’ve lost people, I’ve lost a friend and I’ve lost family members. I’ve never lost a best friend or an immediate family member but a loss is a loss.. Whether it be the end of a friendship or the end of a relationship.. it’s still a loss is it not ?

The ache you left behind.

I no longer look at pictures of me and him and feel anything, I let go of that and it became a thing of the past a long time ago.
But every time I see a picture of us I cringe in pain. I cringe at the idea of us being over and the fact that the past three years no longer mean anything to you.
I cringe thinking about what you’ve done since you left.

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Written November 6th 2014.

She layed in bed, staring at the ceiling, her body silent and still; her mind on the other hand was racing, tossing and turning, fumbling over and over as if in a nightmare. But, she wasn’t asleep and this wasn’t a nightmarish dream; this was reality and she was fully aware of it. 

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I can feel this heart inside me and I conclude it exists. I can touch this world and I also concluded that it exists. All my knowledge ends at this point. The rest is hypothesis.

Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus

 

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That’s what you do when you want something.

You don’t look for reasons why it won’t work.

You look for reasons why it will.

Taylor Jenkins Reid, Maybe in Another Life

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I admire people who choose to smile after all the things they’ve been through.

Home

It’s been almost three months since i’ve seen the place that i’ve called home my entire life.